Francis Scott Key bridge collapse with the cargo-ship Dali --Tasos Katopodis / Getty Images

Hello NewGrounds! Life has not been great but its getting better and I'll get to that in a moment, Let's dive into what I have been up to:

Kamen Rider Collab

I'm pleased this parody cartoon turned out the way it did. It features VA @JennyGlynn and to my surprise it won a Fifth place daily award for that day. No too shabby. :)

I spoke with Chunky who is the lead Collab organizer-- and it seems not a lot of people contributed to the collab, so it seems unlikely we will see everyone's cartoons in one big movie... bummer. But I'll link everyone who did make something below:

Congrats to @itsabluebanana and team for winning a 2nd place daily award for thier entry!

Interview with Aalasteir

Scriptwriting an original idea

I've been on and off trying to write a script involving the character above after completing the Kamen Rider cartoon. I had imagined a huge project involving many things but I am not quite at the skill level (nor patience) to accomplish as I will have to tackle this alone. Scriptwriting is rather tedious and boring, but perhaps time permitting I ill have something better to show progress. :)

The battle against poverty

I have not been having a great a week and have been very depressed and irritated over it, but I have been doing my best to get that turned around. A couple days ago I wrote that I may have to live in my car again because of the unusual slowness at work and the question of being able to pay my bills. Additionally because of the recent bridge collapse in Maryland which blocks the port, I had a very grim outlook on what the rest of the working year would be like (I work in a warehouse for Amazon) as work may become even slower this year. :(

At first, I didn't want to whine about it, as in my experience people don't care about my personal problems, but the problem with that is that I end up bottling everything up and then doing some pretty destructive things and then people think I'm weird. I also end up burning down my own bridges, which screws up a bunch of other things. It makes me unhappy, and if I ripped into you lately, I'm sorry-- that just isn't how I usually am and never want to be. I need to be better at getting a handle on ugly things as they appear.

I have made some strides in the last few days to prevent myself getting screwed:

• I had a long chat with my landlord over some drinks and we come to an agreement that I can pay about 2 weeks late this month. Reason why he does this is because I have been the best tenant/roommate he has ever had.
• Made a call to my creditors-- apparently they were willing to work with me and after discussion I am able to skip a car payment this month.
• I started a record company back in 2018 when I was still in the rave scene that failed when the pandemic hit, I found the money that I used to get the business started sitting in the state treasury's unclaimed property website. So I am in the process of getting that back. :)
• A friend who is going on vacation with me later in the year (pre-planned before this nonsense) sent in the money for the hotel room we are getting this year, and they elected to pay for it all! Which is overwhelmingly fantastic.

So with that said, looks like I had a lot of chips I didn't know I had, and have cashed them in. I have been stuck in a loop of self-reliance for so long it felt so great to know that there were other ways to address them then what I had originally planned.

In short, Poverty can go suck my balls! I'm going to win this battle and not let it screw with my life and my mental heath anymore! :D

Odds and Ends

My half-sister way across the country called in to say she is having a baby and I'm going to be an uncle sometime in October. Family is ecstatic and I am totally gonna pitch in to buy baby things and toys and diapers and such to make sure our new family member gets a very good start in life.

I Didn't get the promotion at work. :(

I am absolutely 100% going to Pico Day NJ Meetup.

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I'm gonna try to be more positive and do less with the negative things that happen, and ignore the idiots, selfdoubt and anxiety that seem to popup when its unwanted I will be less destructive, and remember that I can always pick myself up and rise again.

I'm going to go for a run now and hope to see you later o/

--YendorNG